my jeans from junior high school

it is my jeans

it is blue

it is from junior high school

registration identification number

this is my number..

it is not my name..

it is just numbers...

mobi is just a name...

it could change... you can call me a different name...

do you know who i am ? i want to know who am i?

trying to find my identity.. searching for my indenity..

but not the registration indentification number..

buckle up for safty

people need to feel safe and secure...

that is why i buckle up for safty

it keeps me from flying out of my seat...

crashing in to the window.. and breaking my nose..

Learning To Let Go....

it happend in a second... it was fast... it needed a quick decision..

it stood by me 8 years.. a long time.. a good struggle.. good memories... a good ride..

honda impressa 2000... sold .. moji is gone with the wind

it has gone the distances.. and now it as gone from me....

i have to live... without a motorbike.. and that is my choice and im moving on...

moving for grater things... moving ahead... moving to create change..

im learning to let go..

not really sad... and a bit empty... my life will go on....

Journey through the fog: the uncertainties in life

being born into the world is being born into a world of uncertainty..

so people ... people like me and you... are living in a world of uncertainty...

uncertainty because of the fog... it disturb our vision... it make us short sighted.. may be only 5 meters ahead.. and if the fog is really bad maybe we just 1 m ahead..

the orginal vw does not have a fog lights... it just have ordinary head lights and signal lights..

but due to the conditions that we live in a world of fog... the a fog light will not reduce the fog .. but reduce the accidents.. and crashes that might occur...

just make decision.... to make things certain..

modify the vw bumper so a fog light can stand.. head on verse the fog...

make a decision and stand up to fight the against the world of uncertainties...

the tree and moji

the tree of life...

the leaves of life..

the branches of life..

the roots of life...

the fruits of life..

my life is a tree.. it have roots which is deep down in the soil... it have roots deep down in the earth... it is my charater... it is my personality.. it is who is am.. it is my past.. it is what i have learnt... it is my heart and what a feel... it is my head my thinking .. and what i have done with my life.. my roots are beneth the surface.. underground.. unsean... something that i feel and something in my head...

it have branches .. which try to reach the skies... it have branches to try to touch the moon... it my dreams it is my ambitions... it is my choices... it is my alternative.. it is my plan b.... it is my anticipation for the future... it is what i want in life... it my direction in the sky..

it have leaves in my life.. to cool me down.. to make me calm.. to escape the heat... my leaves is not for myself but also for others... to control my emotions... desires.. and wants.. it is my fast... one day fast and the other not... it calms me down... it makes we aware of what are my needs in life.. it is about taking control of your body... it is about dictating what your body can endure.. it is about constant effort.... to restrain your self... it is self control .. it is self discipline... to change the world you need to be able to change your self... to change your self you need to be able to control your life...

to control your life... it needs full awareness.. it needs high motivation dan dedication..
if you suceed... then you will become an influence for others... it enough to influence the poeple around you... influence through action... not just influence through words...but your goals is just to influence your self.. your goals is to improve your self.. and let other learn from your actions..
and let other learn from your change... let other learn from your improvements...

my leaves is a shelter from the rain... from the storm to keep me dry... not only from the heat but also from the water..... we can't control the rain... we can't prevent a storm... but we can prepare for rain... and shelter for the storm... there are many things that you can't control in life... but you can control how you react to them.. but you can control your attitudes towards the storm.. you can control your behavoir when it rains...

my friend have shouted out to the world..

"while we may not be able to control all that happens to us, we can control what happens inside us..."benjamin franklin""

it is important to understand this...

the fruits of my life.... the results... the achievements.. to me that is not important..

to me it is the process

what have you done with time...? what was the process...? how was the journey? and not what is the destination?

one chinese proveb " i have fallen 7 times and stood up 8"

to be finally standing you need to fall... and that is the process... for any process you will feel the fruits... the sweet or sour...

a fruitfull process or the fruitless process...

if you have tried ... it is enough... if you try again it better

and if you keep on trying then you diserve to pick the fruits from the tree

just keep on trying untill you die... even though maybe in this life time you did not taste the fruits...

let other learn from your effort.. let other learns from your struggle.. let other learn from your motivation.. let others feel your pain... and the mistakes you have made.. to stand up tall and continue to work hard... and reach your dreams...

the important thing here is that

you leave foot prints in the sands of time...

and when your tired .. let moji do the walking..

let moji do the traveling...

this story is started about the tree... and ended with moji...

the tree and moji..

The marginalized temple

I have been to the furthest beeches in DIY

and now my journey to the furthest temple.. in DIY situated in Candirejo, Semin, Gunung Kidul

it is a budhist temple... a temple in ruins.. surrounded by a 1 m tall green and rusty barb wire fences on the top of a hill side..

the enterance welcomes a Awalokiteswara Statue with a small hand shovel on its shoulders

one that is left on by the locals for farming.. or something

it is the most isolated temple... not isolated by people but isolated by it religiuos meaning..

isolated by other temples.. by other places of the budhist worship...

seems strange . . . what happended to the budhits population in that village? how communities change... from a budhist community .. and a temple in ruins as place for worship and now 10 meters from the temple is a church a big church... surrounded by the christian community

that is history.. history changes and history is dynamic..

marginalized and isolated.. candirejo..

efforts has been taken to restore the borobudur, pawon and mendut temples but no efforts have been there to restore candirejo... they are both buddhist temples.. the difference is the distance..

pawon and mendut are just 2 km from the borobudur temple whereas candirejo is more than 60 km.. to the far east and north of gunung kidul..

distance causes lack of attention.. this is the problems that we face in the world..

the buddhist cailendra dynasties starting from ...

Bhanu (752-775) Wisnu (775-782 ) Indra (782-812) Samaratungga (812-833) Pramodhawardhani (833-856) Balaputradewa (833-850)

the dynasties rise and the dyansities ended... great monuments are made and other temples are forgeten...

that is life

it is about rising and it is about falling..

it is clear when temples are being forgoten by the world... being forgotten by history

it is not taken care of.. it is just a list in the government achive of temples in Indonesia

no pictures no stories no effort... nothing being learnt... just a green rusty fence...

the forgotten temples.. the marginalized temples are temples with trees are growing on top of it..

you have coconut trees, hard wood timber, guava tree, pepaya fruit tree ... no longer a sacred place... nothing special about it.. nothing amazing..

time distort things... make things loose it meaning...

this temple have lost the war verse time... time was this temple enemy..

i want to make sure that time is not my enemy but time is my friend..

patients is my friend... time will enrich someones charater

and time will build stronger relationships.. there will always be ups dan down...

there will always be the hole in the road or even temples which are cumbles in ruins..

time will make people older but it makes them mature...

time will give experience and with time you can learn..

my time will not be the forgotten temple...

my time will not be the marginalized temple..

my time will not be the isolated temple.....

my time would be a detailed relief of my life engraved on the walls of time..

and not an empty picture on a white canvas frame..

my time would be my meaning...

Introduction to BikePacking

Me..

My Bike

My Pack

a short intro on bikepakcing

my life my adventure

Welcome to Pain....

i have not kick anyone

i have not pucnhed anyone..

i have not bruised anyone..

i have not pushed any one..

i have not broken anyones bones...

i have not made anyone loose their sight... or hearining...

i have not made any one become paralized...

i have not made any one bleed.. or die

but i still hurt the people around me..

but i still create pains in other peoples lives..

but i still make people cry...

not because im physically violent... but im verbally voilent...

some things i say hurt others... some things i say is inappropiate..

i just say the wrong things at the wrong time...

that is my mistake and that is solely my fault...

i am the person to blame... and let that be the burden that i carry in my life...

sticks and stones will brake my bones but word will never hurt me..

i believe that is a lie....

words hurt more than a broken nose...

words is more painful than black eye..

my silence would be the end of my pain

my fast would be the end of my hurt.....

i may have to bleed for the better...

and let my tears dry up in the sand...

your understanding should not be something i demand....

but your trust to endeavor my pain...

welcome to kansas: welcome to my world of pain

Im just an idiot inside..

some how i have sticker in the rear hood of my car.. which state that "warning idiot inside"

if im driving then it would think that this would be suitable with me.. an idiot..

or some one dangerous behind the wheels.. Why? there is a big chance that i will crash into you... why basically because i can't really drive a car... and secondly i don't have a drivers liscence to to prove that i can actaully drive...

that is one reason why i buy a car.. so i can drive a car.. i will only drive my own car.. with my own hard work..

if i used some one elses car or my parents car.. if i crash.. the blame will be on me..

but if i crash my own car then... i would just repair it if i have the money...

if not then i would ride around jogja with a dent here and a scratch there...

i am a person that is not afraid about my appearence... probally that is why i am an idiot..

and probally that is my character.. proablly that is my statement..

probally then next reason im an idoit is why buy a car.. which is too old..

prone to disaster and break down.. needs repair here and there...

may be the fuel is not efficient...

and waste your money... and any way at that time i did not have that much money...

im an idiot because im taking a chance and im taking a risk...

may be i did not calcualted the every single detail... about buying a car.. or choosing a vw...

but i just made up my mind.. said yes... and did everything that i can do..

everything was spontaniuos .. .. everything was fast... you can't just sit still and say that everything will be alright.. you need to do something about it...

i did something.. which i thought is right...

probally it is not the best decision but it is my decision... and i am responsible for my actions..

and if that is wrong that means i am really an idiot..

and if im right then im probably the smart person inside..